It's amazing how much hope two little lines can give you, but we've seen these lines many times before and still have no baby in our arms. I feel differently now than I did a year ago when we saw these lines with our last baby. I'm not more or less confident or even more or less hopeful about this pregnancy, but I have more peace. We know the realities, the odds, the statistics of our pregnancy outcomes...so I know we may never have a biological child and I'm just beginning to accept THAT reality. I do know that God is an overcomer so while I accept the reality...I also pray for a miracle. I feel like I have a healthy balance of both today. I'm not filled with dread or fear, but rather hope and peace.
When we were pregnant with Gabriel...we embraced it...we cherished our time with him as short as it was. I'm forever grateful that we did. I choose to embrace this pregnancy and cherish each moment whether it's two more weeks, 6 more months or we take a screaming baby home with us in the end. We will pray daily for this baby and ask others to pray and that is all we can do.
Today I am 3 weeks and 3 days pregnant...some would say "barely pregnant", but those two lines signify life to me. Those two lines signify new hope today.
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