...and I am still pregnant

I got my labs back from this morning and my HCG continues to rise, but barely.  In 48 hours it went from 34 to 43.  They obviously don't think this is a healthy pregnancy, but want to continue to monitor my levels.  To give you a comparison my numbers were in the hundreds this week with Gabriel and I ended the week in the thousands. The nurse this morning said they do see some cases of slow rising HCG in the beginning that turn into healthy pregnancies, but with our history I doubt that is our case.  As a Christian I feel like I need to believe that God can intervene here and show us a miracle, but all of the false hope in previous pregnancies only caused more heartache.  I feel like I already grieved this loss so I don't want to have hope only to grieve again in a few weeks.  All that said, I am still pregnant until my levels drop so how do I not hold onto a little hope.

The biggest prayer request right now is that this is not an ectopic.  Ectopic pregnancies are when the embryo attaches somewhere other than the uterus (mostly the fallopian tubes).  Ectopics usually have slow rising HCG, but the numbers are usually higher in the beginning.  My RE doesn't feel like that is what this is, but wants me to keep an eye on my symptoms just in case.  Most often ectopic pregnancies require surgery so we would rather this be a natural miscarriage.

Instead of the 48 hour testing I have been doing...this time I wait until next Wednesday to get another blood test. At this point he doesn't think testing in 48 hours will tell us enough if it is a slow climb.  I will update next week after my results, but appreciate the prayers in the meantime.  Of course pray for a miracle, but our main prayer is that this is not an ectopic that will require surgery.